My recent absence has certainly not gone without cause… &&& for not offering an explanation- I do apologize. I have recently experienced the sudden loss of my mother. Most of you may not know that I am only 24. There is no way to prepare for the sudden loss of a parent.. especially when it is sudden and experienced by  someone who still considers themselves a child… Not due to a lack of maturity, but due to a lack of existence.

I am deeply besieged by my current situation. I sometimes look to the comfort of grievance novels and forums to make sense of my everyday weariness. I find comfort in the explanation of the 5 stages of grief in these forums. I try to place myself in the ladder of these stages to keep sane. It works for small moments of times.. But, I find it worthless in others. I pray one day I can help someone in my situation. Therefore, I try to keep note of my emotions and the sudden stages I experience them. I do this because I don’t know anyone that has dealt with my sitaution. I have many friends that have lost their father at a young age, but none that have lost their mother. I do not believe that any one situation is less equal, but I will remain diligent that they are, indeed, different.

I encourage anyone that  has lost a parent, whether mother or father to email me. Let’s share and help each other. My personal email is: malori.rodriguez@gmail.com